Monthly Archives: January 2015

The Start Of REAL Recovery

Dear Precious Readers!

LORD Willing, I will be writing short posts that will eventually become a book of what PAPA has done in my life. I hope they paint a vivid picture of just how radical KING YESHUA’S Love is for YOU!!!

In HIS Great Love!

Melanee Lisa
One of KING YESHUA’S Beautiful Brave Beloved Warrior Princesses!
OORAH!!!
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“GOD!!! I just want to be the woman YOU Created me to be!!!”

Those are the words I desperately cried (more like hollered) out to PAPA inside the mobile home where I lived with my lesbian life-partner. She and I had been together since spring of 1990. It was now fall of 1995.

I continued the hollered prayer with, “NOT the kind of woman **I** think You Want me to be – or the kind of woman other Christians or my family or strangers think I’m to be! I ONLY want to be the kind of woman YOU WANT ME TO BE!!!”

With that, I slumped to the floor, writhing in wretched sobs…gasping for air as the gut-punching-pain slammed me again and again for what seemed to be forever…

I had finally surrendered…or at least **began** surrendering to The One Who had been Waiting so Patiently for me to become “sick-and-tired of being sick-and-tired.” (He’s VERY Patient, by the way!)

So there I was on the linoleum floor, painfully sobbing with snot-and-tear-puddles everywhere, while KING YESHUA Held me in HIS Powerfully Tender Strong Arms. It was an excellent place to start “REAL Recovery” – HalleluYAH!!!
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2-Minute CR Testimony!

Hey there, Readers!

Below is my 2-minute testimony that I shared at Celebrate Recovery for our 11th Anniversary Party on FRI 9 JAN 2015! May PAPA use the following words to enCOURAGE you to NEVER give up!!!

In HIS Great Love!
Beautiful Warrior Princess Melanee Lisa!
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Hey there, CR Family!

I’m one of KING JESUS’ Warrior Princesses and my name is Melanee!

And that’s Melanee with 2 EEs on the end!
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I’m gonna share my 2-minute testimony in 3 “segments”:

1. Before Recovery,
2. After Recovery, and
3. After CR!

1. BEFORE RECOVERY

I survived over 13 years of sexual abuse by dissociating; I hated being a girl and viewed myself as a boy.

I lived in constant fear of men, was addicted to porn, and because of my homosexual feelings, I eventually told GOD that I was a lesbian. I lived with a lesbian identity for over 16 years.

I often lied and manipulated whenever I was afraid — which was often.

2. AFTER RECOVERY

I started REAL Recovery with a Christian therapist on 1 SEP 1995. I worked on the core wounds from the sexual, physical, emotional abuse and neglect and JESUS Performed many miracles! I began to no longer view myself as a boy and was beginning to LOVE being a girl!!
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As PAPA Cleansed and Healed my heart from the sexual abuse, my fear of men began to diminish and my use of porn and masturbation decreased. KING YESHUA transformed my view of myself from being a tough dyke to being HIS Beautiful Strong Tender Warrior Princess!!! OORAH!!
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HOLY SPIRIT was Teaching me why I was fearful and HE Showed me I could choose to stop attempting to control people-places-things by listening to HIM instead of my fears.
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3. AFTER CR

By the time I arrived at the very first meeting of Celebrate Recovery in 2003, I was no longer having any sexual abuse flashbacks and, through PAPA’S Great Love, I had forgiven the 4 perpetrators — HalleluYAH!!!
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KING YESHUA used (and still uses) numerous male leaders from CR to continue to diminish my fear of men and HE has repeatedly used the women of CR to let me know that I am TRULY “one-of-the-girls”!
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In 2012, HOLY SPIRIT revealed how I was sometimes still lying and it had to do with talking out of fear. Ever since I started sharing about it at CR, my fear-based talking has significantly decreased!!!

And currently…I get to work on STOPPING being lazy!!!
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In closing, I enCOURAGE all the newcomers and the oldtimers to NEVER EVER give up!!!

Thanks for letting me share!!!
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