Hey there, Readers!
Below is my 2-minute testimony that I shared at Celebrate Recovery for our 11th Anniversary Party on FRI 9 JAN 2015! May PAPA use the following words to enCOURAGE you to NEVER give up!!!
In HIS Great Love!
Beautiful Warrior Princess Melanee Lisa!
Hey there, CR Family!
I’m one of KING JESUS’ Warrior Princesses and my name is Melanee!
And that’s Melanee with 2 EEs on the end!
I’m gonna share my 2-minute testimony in 3 “segments”:
1. Before Recovery,
2. After Recovery, and
3. After CR!
1. BEFORE RECOVERY
I survived over 13 years of sexual abuse by dissociating; I hated being a girl and viewed myself as a boy.
I lived in constant fear of men, was addicted to porn, and because of my homosexual feelings, I eventually told GOD that I was a lesbian. I lived with a lesbian identity for over 16 years.
I often lied and manipulated whenever I was afraid — which was often.
2. AFTER RECOVERY
I started REAL Recovery with a Christian therapist on 1 SEP 1995. I worked on the core wounds from the sexual, physical, emotional abuse and neglect and JESUS Performed many miracles! I began to no longer view myself as a boy and was beginning to LOVE being a girl!!
As PAPA Cleansed and Healed my heart from the sexual abuse, my fear of men began to diminish and my use of porn and masturbation decreased. KING YESHUA transformed my view of myself from being a tough dyke to being HIS Beautiful Strong Tender Warrior Princess!!! OORAH!!
HOLY SPIRIT was Teaching me why I was fearful and HE Showed me I could choose to stop attempting to control people-places-things by listening to HIM instead of my fears.
3. AFTER CR
By the time I arrived at the very first meeting of Celebrate Recovery in 2003, I was no longer having any sexual abuse flashbacks and, through PAPA’S Great Love, I had forgiven the 4 perpetrators — HalleluYAH!!!
KING YESHUA used (and still uses) numerous male leaders from CR to continue to diminish my fear of men and HE has repeatedly used the women of CR to let me know that I am TRULY “one-of-the-girls”!
In 2012, HOLY SPIRIT revealed how I was sometimes still lying and it had to do with talking out of fear. Ever since I started sharing about it at CR, my fear-based talking has significantly decreased!!!
And currently…I get to work on STOPPING being lazy!!!
In closing, I enCOURAGE all the newcomers and the oldtimers to NEVER EVER give up!!!
Thanks for letting me share!!!